let it go.

here's an idea.

recently, i read someone's facebook post that simply said 'let it go.'

i thought very little of it because at the moment i was more amused by all of the updates that talked about their kids, something being difficult, or someone just complaining about something i could relate to.

but tonight, i remembered that post. tonight, after a long an terrible day preceded by two weeks of hard days and long nights filled with sick children who have done nothing but cry and complain, i remembered that post 'let it go.'

maybe that's the key for me. so tomorrow, i am going to let go of the fact that my house is always messy...some room in it is always filled with the evidence that i have four small children. i am going to forgive matt of all of his short comings, because god knows he forgives me of mine.

i am going to let go of the fact that we have less money than what i want and remember that we have everything we need. food, shelter, love, faith.

i want to let it go.

i want to enjoy my kids and their mess so that i don't ruin it for them.

i want to be happy in my marriage so that i don't ruin for us.

i am going to let it go. and try my darnedest to relish the blessings that fill up my life and my days and my time. i have so much...so many things that i need to hold on to. and so many things i need to just let go.