a post for me more than you...

i just can't shake this connection i feel to the steven curtis chapman family...not since they lost their daughter, maria in may.
every single time i think about it, i am driven to do two things - pray for them and hug my kids.
when i read about the chapman family and the heartbreaking loss of maria, i feel like i could throw up. i, as a mom, cannot imagine the loss that the family is enduring every day. when maria died in may, it was tragedy and shock. now that the shock has perhaps worn a bit, the tragedy grows. the days without her continue on into forever. it is so sad.
to me, they have been inspirational in their unshakable faith throughout. it's amazing. it's awesome. i think the thing that will continue to make me sad is seeing pictures of scc. he doesn't even look like the same person. he only looks sad. he is faithful - but heartbroken. he feels the love around him, i am sure, but his world is in pieces and it is in his face.
maybe more than anything it scares me. to love your kids like parents do is like nothing else. it overtakes you. it changes how your brain works and how your heart feels. i cannot fathom the pain a parent must feel to lose a child. i never want to know and it scares me.
although God's love will sustain his family and they will save souls because of this insane situation, it seems to me that the pain will always be there for them. i have watched him grieve and i hate it. i admire him - i know he is being upheld - and yet he is hurting so much that his face shows nothing else. painfully faithful.
continue to pray for this family - and for all families going through similar situations. i will do the same. now...i gotta go hug my kids.